floor 4

[InYourHead]

dont have time for discriptions

[wolf]

Makiri slunk to the top of the crumbling hospital and hopped up, onto the ceiling. He hung there like a bat and a cocoon of shadow swallowed him up. the darkness would help him heal, he should be better with a couple hour's worth of rest. He smiled as he thought about dave being ripped to pieces by his own enemies lulled him to sleep.

[wolf]

Makiri woke, a couple seconds later, and frowned. Something was wrong. he could sense it.... He fell off the roof and landed on his head.

"You idiot! you forgot to replace the sealing spell!!!!"

He spread his wings and headed toward Christan's hide out as fast as he could.

[kashim]

Gabriel walked up the decrepit steps and looked around the darkness, as he scanned the place with his eyes he saw black soot and pieces of burnt timber, the entire place was run down and falling apart, it was perfect he needed to get away from all the noise and didn't feel like going home.

"Well with all the sh*t that's transpired I'm surprised I haven't killed them all."

'Who are you talking to?'

"I'm talking to you."

'You do realize that I'm just your inner voice, I am you.'

"So? It's nice to talk to someone who'll listen and won't have a biased opinion about everything you say."

'So what? You just want me to listen? Or...'

"Look just listen I mean it's not like you've got anything better to do."

'Yeah whatever...'

"Anyway I can't believe that sh*t with Christian!"

'Look just don't think about it, I mean that was pretty messed up but can you blame him? That's just how he copes.'

"Yeah well it still gets under my skin, and you know what I don't feel bad about anything! I feel great!"

'Oh now your just lying to yourself. What you did to Tom was so f**ked up and you know it, I mean not only did you f**k Tom up you also ruined Alex!'

"SO! Why should I care about a measly human!? And by the way, I helped Tom, not only did I make him happy for the first time in his pathetic existence but I also took away his pain forever!"

'Lying to yourself again, I know it's eating away at you, you feel horrible because Tom killed all those people plus you single handedly destroyed your only real friend. Tom was your companion your comrade, he would've died for you, none of the others can make that claim, in fact most of them wouldn't hesitate to attack you just for some cheap entertainment.'

"And? You know I'd not hesitate to do the same thing if my mood dictated it!"

'Bullsh*t, you wouldn't do it because deep down you care, you care if Christian is happy or hurt, you care about Makiri and worry where his life is going, if he'll ever flourish, and you even care about Alex that's why you tried so desperately to show her love.'

"I don't care about sh*t, I just..."

'Just what? You know I'm right, you hate yourself, don't you?'

"And? What if I do!? I'm going to live for the rest of eternity, that's a long time to be unhappy! A long time to sit by and watch as others take every precious thing they have for granted! I look at them all and they disgust me! Loving, laughing, and happiness, all the pleasure god bestowed upon them, and then there's us the angels, the ones who came first and yet we suffer! Why is that? Why did he choose them over us!? We came first, we are perfect compared to them! So why!?"

'Because you were the ones designed to bear the weight, so they could be happy. You harbor all their pain, all their suffering so that they have the capacity to experience pleasure.'

"It's not fair!"

'No matter how much you deny it you were created as an empathic creature. You were made to care, just not to love.'

[kashim]

"I hate this wretched existence! I've lived and seen horrible things, things most creatures can't even imagine, I lose friend's and family to death..."

'And you can't help but blame yourself, because you either caused their demise or you were commanding them.'

Gabriel started to cry, he buried his face in his hands and started to bawl.

"I just want it to stop. Just make it stop."

'It'll never stop, the pain is eternal, just like your existence, it won't stop until your dead and you can't die.'

"I hate this! I could just kill everyone and then there wouldn't be anyone to care about!"

'And you'd hate yourself more because you'd be all alone and their death's would haunt you forever.'

"What's wrong with being alone!?"

'You hate it, you hate being by yourself it's in you nature...'

"Shut up! Just shut up! Stop telling me that it's in my nature and I can't change it!"

'But you can't and the more you reject it the more it'll hurt.'

"Maybe I should just make myself human and destroy myself with drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes"

'And what good would that do? As soon as you died you just end up coming back and you'd still feel horrible...'

"I like to kill! I like to see blood and pain and death!"

'Then why did you put that scar on your arm? Tom's scar. And why do you keep all your scars when you could make them go away with the wave of your hand? It's because you care, because death eats away at you, the death's of comrades and victims, you keep the scars to rmind you every time you look in the mirror, every time you remove your clothes, so you can make yourself suffer.'

"I hate myself and I hate everything else! I don't want to forget them..."

'And this way you never will, you deal with it all in unhealthy ways on purpose, to destroy yourself a little more...'

"But I like to kill!"

'Yes, but you like it because it ends up hurting you in the long run.'

"So!? What am I supposed to do then!? Just sit somewhere and rot!? Try and seek comfort from the others!? I mean you said yourself they'd sooner kill me than help me!?"

'No but you need to figure something else out, or you'll destroy yourself.'

"Good, that's what I want. I wasn't granted the victory of a warrior's death, I was left to rot in this cesspit of filth! So if I destroy myself then it'd be for the best."

'Just think about it...'

"What about love, huh!? I mean I could fall in love right?"

'No, no love for you. You won't find love because a mate for you was never made, so your doomed to be alone.'

"Then there's truly no hope and pain is all I can wish for..."

[kashim]

Gabriel flew out of the hospital still grappling with himself.

"Will you shut the f**k up! I don't want to hear it!"

'That your suffering on the inside...'


"I said shut up! I don't need this!"

'What? Reality? The realization that your going to suffer forever?"

Gabriel started to shake, and his eyes welled up in tears.

"Why are you tormenting me!?"

'I'm trying to help you, you need to be more forthcoming with your feelings...'

"f**k you! I don't need your lies!"

'I'm you, I know you better than you know yourself.'

Gabriel started to head toward the crossroads, as he approached he wiped the tears from his eyes.

[wolf]

Makiri landed on the roof of the building. He could see his breath come out in thick vaporous wisps. He had tried to sleep, but the cold had kept him awake. "I think i'll go bother the angels for a while...." He lifted into the sky and was gone.